Blood, sweat and fears... Part III

"Fear is a reaction. Courage is a decision" Sir Winston Churchill

When rehab hasn't really progressed things and the NHS seem to want to send you down the slow route whilst noting that you are a long way off having a fully functioning shoulder, there is really only one route to explore. When you are talking shoulder injuries it seems pretty unanimous that there is only one person to consult - Professor Len Funk aka The Shoulder Doctor. An MRI scan confirmed his suspicions - that my shoulder was not going to improve on its own! Given how fast the private healthcare system operates (no pun intended), no sooner had we agreed for 'The Prof' as I affectionately call him, to do his thing then it was operation fix Fiona day.

Looking a little peeky after a couple of hours in theatre

I'm not the calmest patient at the best of times and given the experience of being sedated with Ketamine back in April (see blog post Blood, Sweat & Fears: Part I) was still all too fresh in my mind, I walked down to the anaesthetic room with trepidation. Going for surgery always creates mixed feelings - you know that (all being well) you are going to come out the other side with a far greater chance of improvement having been 'made better', however you know there is a whole lot of discomfort to come in the meantime. Dr. Hundle, the anaesthetist, helped to settle my nerves; he went off to get a surgical hat to cover my long locks and then proceeded to put it on over my eyes (you had to be there to find it amusing!). Anyway, no sooner had he told me that he needed to set up the cannula in my hand and got me on the subject of breakfast cereal (he happened across one of my pet subjects!!) then I was coming around in the recovery area.

Hospital Hair: the result of plaits for a week! I'd highly recommend it when you can't reach your head .

It was a far more stressful experience for Paul than it was for me. Whilst I was in theatre there was a thunder storm rolling around outside, disrupting the power. I was gone for 1 hour, then 2... Obviously there was no power disruption in the hospital but when you are anxiously waiting for someone to return it's easy to over-think the minor details.

I'd taken the advice of The Prof and Dr. Hundle and had a brachial plexus nerve block, so when I came around I couldn't feel anything from my shoulder to my fingertips on my left arm. It sounded slightly scary in that there was a small chance of it going wrong and my arm being paralysed. However Dr. Hundle assured me that he does in excess of 800 of these every year and would not consider having this type of surgery done himself without one. That was enough to convince me!

I'd never realised how heavy a 'dead' arm was until now but I certainly wasn't complaining as the main benefit was 12-14 hours of no feeling and therefore no pain! Having been in constant pain since that fateful day on April 22nd this was actually a fantastic experience - it was a shame I was so feeling so dopey after the general anaesthetic, or I could have capitalised.

Important to start moving gradually within 24 hours

Prof Len came by to see us later in the evening to say that he hadn't found anything unexpectedly 'nasty' when he opened up my shoulder, which is always a relief. He and his team had done their bit so it was down to me to follow his instructions for the next 3 weeks... The first few days were definitely the worst, I've never tolerated general anaesthetic particularly well so I knew to expect being very sick. I had forgotten just quite how sore the tubes make your throat though - this all made taking a veritable pharmacy of tablets more challenging. Both Prof Funk and his Pain Specialist Assistant kept tabs on me over the first few days which was nice.

Step by step rehab on Shoulder Doc website

The Shoulder Doc website is an excellent resource for both shoulder patients and physios alike. I was to work my way through level 1 exercises over the coming weeks. There is a whole host of articles, shoulder animations and other interesting shoulder related stuff - it's a hub for medical professionals as well as a comprehensive patient resource. If you know someone who is struggling with a shoulder problem then it is definitely worth a browse.

There are a few basic but really useful things that I learnt that might be handy to share:

1. Managing Pain:
The art of pain management lies in being one step ahead. Despite being nerve blocked for 12-14 hours and therefore having no pain during this time, the anaesthetist explained that it was important to accept pain relief so I had plenty on board. It is too late once you start to feel pain as you will have already entered into that vicious circle of playing catch up. I had a variety of painkillers, some of which were 'staple' meds and some were to help manage that 'breakthrough pain' when some of the painkillers are starting to wear off but it's not quite time to take the next dose... We all respond differently to different groups of painkillers but prior to surgery I was struggling to tolerate Tramadol so the anaesthetist switched me onto oral morphine. I was dreading taking it as I'd already decided that it was likely to taste vile - as it happened, it was more like the cough medicine Benylyn so not unpleasant at all. A potential result there; pain killers that taste ok and actually do what it says on the tin (or bottle in this case)... as long as it is spaced far enough away from the other opiates, or combined they also make you feel sick. Who knew taking analgesics was such an art form, definitely not me until recently.

It was also instilled in me that pain management is an equally important part of rehab and recovery as Physio, rest and follow up appointments. After all, if I'm in pain I'm unlikely to be able to tolerate the Physio exercises and risk regressing or at least not getting the most out of the surgery. Clearly my hitherto attitude of try and get by on as few pain meds as possible was not going to cut the mustard!

2. Managing Medication:
When you have a host of different medications to take, e.g. multiple painkillers, anti-inflammatories, anti-sickness etc they inevitably need to be taken at different times of the day, some without food and some after. Whilst initially you might think it sounds straight forward you soon realise that this is actually far from true. However, making yourself a simple Meds log makes it a whole lot simpler to remember. It needn't be complicated; just the date, time and what you've taken should suffice. It will alleviate that 'was it 8am or 9am when I took those painkillers', 'can I take the morphine yet'...? Even if you usually have a good memory, the after effects of a general anaesthetic, lack of sleep, and having different medications with different requirements that you're likely not used to taking all work their magic to confuse you!

3. More is not Better:
Whilst this also applies to meds, I am actually referring to rehab exercises! When your exercise sheet says do 8-12 of these x 3 a day, the athlete mindset kicks in and you think well, surely if I do 12-14 x 4 day I'll get better quicker... WRONG! Pushing myself to the limit and trying to squeeze in as many little exercises as I could muster, I thought that I must be helping myself. In fact I was doing the exact opposite - creating more inflammation in the area and slowing down the healing process, not to mention increasing the pain levels and then having to take increasing amounts of morphine to try and settle it down.

A useful guide - if you think of a visual analogue scale (VAS) where pain is 1 - 10 were 10 is excruciating, you should not be jumping up by more than 2 points when you are doing your exercises. So, if you were a 6/10 before you started, you might find yourself at 7 or 8/10 during your exercises but within a few minutes of finishing you should be back at that 6/10 again.

Don't forget, we are all different and every mechanism of injury sets us off on a different path or rehab trajectory, so just as we wouldn't share prescriptions for pain medication don't be tempted to share exercises that aren't prescribed for you either.

Good luck to anyone else on a rehab journey, don't forget to use the support around you, be honest with your Physio if things aren't going as you'd hoped but be honest with yourself too! x

Blood, sweat and fears... Part II

"Trust the timing of your life. Stay positive, stay calm, stay determined, stay focussed, and most of all trust your journey"

So, it's been a while but so much has happened; although somewhat disappointingly I don't feel a huge amount further forward! I must admit it's become all too easy to focus on the negatives, so this post is all about the positives, of which there are also plenty.

I love the sentiment of Kintsukuroi

The big positive and perhaps the most unexpected was that the shattered segments of my humeral head actually healed really well, despite still being visible on x-ray and MRI. I think I'll have a personal jigsaw puzzle of a shoulder for quite a while to come. With that box ticked, we could start to look at the soft tissue... not so good! To cut a very long story short the bones and soft tissues needed opposing rehabilitation - one requiring immobilisation and one gentle movement. With the latter not possible, the shoulder capsule started to heal in an extremely thickened manner, disrupting the coraco-humeral ligament along the way. Think pencil line becoming a medium sized DIY paintbrush and you are getting somewhere near - essentially a traumatic 'frozen shoulder' or adhesive capsulitis on top of the damage. This did little for my confidence as frozen shoulders are more generally found in an older, inactive population; so it was a connotation I felt that I could do without. However, thankfully, they are not an uncommon side-effect of a more serious injury, hence being referred to as of traumatic origin (cue feeling less old and lazy!)

Being keen to avoid the major surgical route for as long as possible, I elected to try a hydrodilatation procedure. This involves the shoulder capsule being flushed out, under pressure, with antibiotics, steroids and saline - with the aim of 'pushing' the capsule away from the adhesions that have formed. I can certainly vouch that, despite the very cheery approach and skill of Richard Collins (@LinearProbe); its darn painful!!

Ultrasound guided hydrodilatation

Whilst this helped to regain some movement, it wasn't as successful as I'd hoped - I was still well below 90 degrees in any direction and below 30 in some. There was one last option to throw at it conservatively - a week of intense rehabilitation at The Fire Fighter's Charity. As a serving member of Fire Service staff I am fortunate to be eligible to access the services at any of the three UK centres - Harcombe House, Devon, Marine Court in West Sussex or Jubilee House in Cumbria. I opted for the latter simply because it was the most straightforward train journey for me. They offer 3 - 7 day stays which are either physical or psychological focussed as well as nursing care. The ethos at every centre is that of a holistic, multi-disciplinary approach. Although our programme was physical injury focussed, we also had sessions on sleep, pain management, meditation, mindfulness and coping with stress. The concept that we were introduced to early on and that I struggled with the most was adjusting to 'a new you'. Not the New Year Nonsense that we are exposed to annually just before 1st January (that deserves a whole blog post of it's own!) but a new 'normal' whether that be movement or pain restricted or both. I have only ever seen 'this' as a temporary blip in proceedings, although clearly there's been many things that I've been unable do since April - so perhaps in some ways I am more accepting than I think...

Prehab week at Jubilee House, Cumbria, held together by SPORTTAPE

As the week went on, it became clear to me that it was more 'prehab' than rehab. The staff were fantastic, the facilities excellent and the location perfect, so although my shoulder wasn't up for 'playing', it was a great experience and I met some super people. Spending time with others who are also struggling with a variety of injuries at various stages of recovery always helps to normalise the things you can't do. At dinner one evening, without a moment of hesitation, Gordon, the chap I was sat next to offered to cut up my chicken, knowing full well that I was unable to use a knife and fork at the same time. That made a pleasant change from feeling like you are under peoples' gaze for appearing 'different' on the odd occasion that you venture out. 

Fast forward a couple of weeks and rehab takes a huge step forward... but that is another post!

Sports Personality of the Year, 2018

No, not that one, The City of Stoke on Trent Sports Personality of the Year Awards!

The 2018 awards, looking back on the 2017 season, marked the 43rd occasion that this event has been held to reward amateur and professional sportsmen and women, children, teams, volunteers and coaches. It is a unique partnership between The Sentinel and Stoke on Trent City Council and is a fabulous opportunity to celebrate sporting talent from across the area, as well as those who nurture and support it.

The 2018 Sports Awards campaign highlighted tales of success, endeavour and commitment drawn from a variety of different sports. The magnificent Kings Hall was a fabulous venue to host such a special evening. It was a real privilege and an honour to be shortlisted amongst some of the 'best sporting talent' in the area, which included Olympic champions, Paralympic heroes and the three professional football teams.

The Kings Hall looking truly resplendent 

The irony of the 2017 season feeling like a lifetime ago and my 2018 season having not long been totally derailed wasn't lost on me (see Blood, Sweat & Fears Part I). I had to keep reminding myself that this was a celebration of the commitment, dedication and hard work from not just me but those around me along with a dream, a desire and a vision to make it happen. Even the current circumstances couldn't take this away from me; it just made last year's achievements seem a whole lot less repeatable!

I had been shortlisted in the Senior Individual category, alongside Danielle Wyatt and Adam Burgess. Danielle wrote her name in English cricket history in 2017 when she became the first England woman to score a Twenty20 century in the final match of the Ashes series in Canberra in November. Meanwhile Adam once again made his mark in the world of canoe slalom, climbing up the rankings and claiming his first World Cup medal (a bronze in Markleeburg, Germany).

Then there was little old me, definitely feeling my age when being directly compared to two talented athletes in their mid twenties!! The achievement that had seen me shortlisted was my silver medal from the UCI Champs, backed up by taking my first TLI Cycling National title underwritten by a 100% podium finish record. However you look at these achievements, whilst fabulous for me, I was clearly a country mile behind the talent and achievements of the other two.

Danielle was a very worthy winner of our category and went on to take the evening's overall 'Female Sports Personality of the Year' and to prove the strength of senior talent, Adam went on to take the Male equivalent. I was proud to have been shortlisted so that was certainly reward enough for me.

I hadn't expected either of these as Runner-up!

As always at such occasions where sporting talent is being showcased, you can't help but realise just how much sporting ability there is in the area. Not just from sports people but coaches and those who tirelessly volunteer their time and expertise to nurture others. The people working in the background generally make the magic happen but rarely get the limelight.

Thanks to everyone involved in the organisation of what was a really lovely evening, from the red carpet on arrival, fabulous food to the military precision of certificate and champagne delivery direct to the table. I was glad I was able to attend, even if in a somewhat reduced capacity! It certainly made a stark contrast to my more recent outings to the Fracture Clinic, Orthopaedics and Physio and actually marked the first time I'd braved any distance in the car.

Blood, sweat and fears... Part I

... when experiences change everything in a heartbeat and in the blink of an eye things are turned upside down (literally).

The tale of two comebacks and a season reboot, both before my (2018) season has actually got off the ground! An honest account of the last six months...

Sometimes life throws you a curved ball and occasionally that curved ball behaves more like a boomerang, in this case seemingly a boomerang on a bungee cord! For reasons I (legally) can't go into on here, and totally unrelated to cycling, my focus had to be elsewhere for most of the winter. All my energy and resolve was taken up dealing with the stress, pressure and worry of what was relentlessly going on. As this continued to build, training became one stressor too many - given cycling is as much my coping mechanism for the daily grind as it serves to satisfy my competitive instinct, this wasn't a decision taken lightly. However, knowing the plethora of reasons that exercise is good for both our physical and mental wellbeing 'mindful miles' were soon reinstated. In structured training terms this was realistically (delayed) 'base building'. However, at this point the thought of racing was one pressure too much. Those of you who know me, will appreciate that my attention to detail, commitment and relentless pursuit to be the best I can be drives my ambition and I knew deep down that I didn't have the reserves to fully commit to this at this time. As athletes we are generally our own biggest critics and when that sense of control disappears it is difficult to find the driving seat towards anything, let alone perfection.

However, as time went on and with no clear end-goal in sight for the off-bike challenges, I decided that I didn't want any regrets, I was going to try to harness these difficulties to spur me on. I was also lucky enough to have the (ever patient) backing of the Pro Vision Race Team and it's sponsors; I didn't want to let them down.  My goals had been to build on my 2017 season; my last before joining the vet ranks and officially feeling old! I could try to lower my expectations and see where I was fitness wise... I didn't need Training Peaks to tell me I wasn't at peak fitness but I wasn't at rock bottom either. Then there was also the small matter of 'Percy' the P3 having been warranty replaced by Cervelo. This little saga took the best part of four months to sort out.

All things considered, on a sunny Saturday morning in late April, I pulled on my TLI Champs jersey (the first time I've actually worn it since the podium last Summer), found a lovely cycle path right on the doorstep and mentally pressed the reset button. That evening I just made the entry deadline for the A19/10 TT - I may as well put a marker down to build on! I had conveniently parked the fact that I still didn't have a built TT bike at this point but I've never been averse to turning myself inside out on a road bike, so there was always plan B. This was the start of my 'comeback'.

A comeback that lasted less than 24 hours before coming to a screeching halt with an almighty bang.

I was hit by a car at around 07:20 the very next day, early on a fateful Sunday morning. One second I was pedalling around a roundabout, just 20 minutes into my ride, the next I am lying in the road following what I can only describe as a bone chilling crashing sound as a car struck me. I was immediately aware of the intense pain radiating from my left side, both my left arm, knee and hip were throbbing and I couldn't feel my hand. My neck was pretty sore and one look at my left shoulder told me that it was certainly deformed, likely dislocated! I couldn't see my bike but it wasn't at the top of my priority list just then (sorry Hetty).

Back on the ward after shoulder relocation

The next time I looked up there was a sea of faces looking down at me, reassuring me that the ambulance was on its way. Luckily for me some passers by had stopped, a driver had shielded me from further injury with his car and a fellow cyclist had also come to my assistance, someone had placed a blanket over me - much kindness was evident. A police traffic car arrived followed by a first responder with gas and air (definitely not what it is cracked up to be) and finally the ambulance with the strong stuff (morphine). The journey to New Cross Hospital, Wolverhampton, strapped on to a spinal board, felt never-ending. Every bump in the road, change of speed or direction was transmitted through my left side. Little did I know that this was nothing compared to the pain of trying to be placed in a position to enable the radiographer to assess the damage! The Resus team needed to know what they were treating and any more pain relief was on hold until they had a plan of action.

Blue circle = shattered fragments, green arrow = where humeral head should sit

Sparing you the gory details, I woke up later on having had my shoulder relocated and strapped to me, my wounds cleaned and repeatedly asking Paul where I was and what had happened. Anyone who has been sedated with Ketamine will know that it's not the most pleasant experience, quite why anyone would take this for 'fun' is definitely beyond me! Granted, you are totally unaware of what is going on around you but I found myself so far from reality that I wasn't actually sure whether I was still alive or not. Perhaps the best description I have is that of feeling like I was travelling around, like a cell, in a 3D version of my own blood vessels at the speed of light; except everything was blue rather than red. Trying to string words together was very difficult and faces and images looked very distorted - it definitely wasn't an experience that I'd want to repeat any time soon.

Anyway, my humeral head (the ball part of the ball and socket joint that form the shoulder complex) had partially shattered with the force that had dislocated it, so it was going to be a waiting game to see whether the bone fragments would start to heal themselves (I understand it's not possible to pin or plate this).

Very glad to be recovering back at home

After a pretty uncomfortable first few days without much sleep but feeling ever grateful that I hadn't sustained more significant injuries, it was review time with the Orthopaedic Consultant. More x-rays to assess whether my humeral head was still sitting where it had been relocated and to understand more about the damage sustained. Being pulled around by the radiography team for the second time in a few days was no less painful but needs must! It's a pretty open book when the Consultant says 'it's a very nasty injury... it's far too early to know how or whether the shattered section will heal...' Even in my still dazed/traumatised, sleep-deprived state I realised that I perhaps wasn't going to heal overnight.

Friends with flowers to the rescue!

So, it seems like there is a long road to recovery ahead. As is more often than not the case with any injury, but definitely such traumatic incidents, it's so much more than the sum of the physical ailments; arguably they are the easiest part. Given time bones will regenerate and muscles and tendons will heal. It is certainly not as cut and dry as 'just' a smashed shoulder, it's an ongoing battle of a multitude of things, especially with an entire left side that took quite a battering as well as significant abdominal swelling. Think of taking up martial arts, not being very adept at it and landing on the floor more times than you remained upright and you might be somewhere near! At least I will mend given time, which is more than can be said for Hetty (the bike), who unfortunately broke a little more than me on the impact and will need retiring, along with the majority of her parts - some of which were in a fairly abstract shape!

Until you can't do them you don't appreciate just how many incidental, small activities of daily living you do without them even registering. Getting dressed; not being able to move an arm in any direction makes getting into most clothes almost impossible! Washing and drying your hair, especially when it's long, is definitely some sort of feat of balance, endurance and patience. The latter of which is starting to run pretty thin, especially when getting anywhere near comfortable at night to attempt to sleep has proved nearer impossible than difficult. My memory has been far worse than normal, I know, you wouldn't think that's possible would you?! I'll be unable to drive for quite a while, so the total reliance on others for assistance is pretty heavy. Thankfully Paul has been more than patient and accommodating in being a taxi service to and fro the hospital and Physio and my parents did some 'daughter sitting' in the early days!! Thankfully my left hip settled after ten days or so and I can at least walk around, although my knee is still keen to point out that it didn't go unscathed in all of this and is currently a tender shade of purple and green!

Appreciating the small things

Despite the well meaning assurance of many that 'I'll bounce back in no time' we are all on a different personal journey and 2018 has started to feel like somewhat of an extended nightmare to date. Albeit a nightmare that I've been lucky enough to still be working my way through and that I'm certain can only get better!

Thanks to everyone for the support, many of you have gone the extra mile or fifty to help and it's very much appreciated x

To be cont'd in Part II...

Do you really need a TT bike to Time Trial?

In short, NO!


It was the postponed awards evening for the 2017 Midlands Women's Time Trial Series back in April (thanks for organising Anna). I was sat next to someone who is relatively new to cycling and came along to a couple of TTs last year to see what it's all about. This was me just a couple of years before. A friend, who I had met through Strava, said "come along to our Club TT, it's good fun... I think you'll enjoy it".


So, I met her to ride over to said event - me on the second-hand road bike that I had not long purchased, wearing the one set of cycling kit that I owned at the time and a pair of tri shoes, as I thought that Duathlon was probably the goal at the time. She arrives at the meeting point on her Pinarello TT bike, with a skinsuit, pointy helmet and shoe covers! I had honestly wondered what I had let myself in for! All I could think about on the ride over was how I was going to get out of this - clearly I was going to look stupid, I would be the only one on a road bike and was just simply, way out of my depth.

My first Open 10 on a basic aluminium Trek 1.1

My fears were short-lived as everyone was really friendly, nobody laughed at my road bike, baggy jersey or my worry that I would go the wrong way (despite being directionally challenged even I could manage to go straight on at the first roundabout and circumnavigate the second to return to the start! If I remember correctly I rode a long 26, which soon became a 26.0 (beating a few people on TT bikes into the bargain). A time that it actually took me a couple of outings on my TT bike to better!!


These same fears surfaced the following year (2014) when I signed up for my first 'Open 10', despite it being advertised as a Novices event. I parked next to a delightful couple, who were really friendly and helpful... and then wheeled out a sparkly Cervelo P5 with a disc and deep section front wheel out of their car! Once again, those fears that everyone would laugh when I got my aluminium Trek (that we had taken the mudguards off and scrubbed the night before) out were unfounded. I wasn't last by a long shot, in fact I would have won the Novices category, had it not been for a somewhat random definition of novice. (I had only ridden two club events, for fun but given one of those had been in a time of 26 minutes exactly, I apparently "couldn't possibly be a novice"). This was a little confusing as to me I was the definition of a novice personified - I was still very much learning about Time Trialling, had a road bike and had never ridden an Open 10 before.

My first, somewhat poorly fitting, TT bike - I was faster on my road bike for quite a while!

Anyway, the point that I was reminded of on this particular Saturday evening is that from the outside Time Trialling can seem quite exclusive, it might appear that everyone has fancy bikes, pointy helmets and disc wheels but honestly, not everyone does. The beauty of Time Trialling is that actually, until you decide that it's something you'd like to be competing at the sharp end of, you really do only need you, a bike and a willingness to push yourself as hard as you can for 10 miles (or further, if you get into it). In the early days the majority of the gains are rider rather then equipment based.

Closed roads course - benefitting from taking the racing line (wrong side of the road)

Having said that, there are a few fairly easy swaps:

• Streamline your bike - remove anything off your frame that adds weight (light packs or bottles that you might take on a long ride or commute)
• A close fitting skinsuit
• A pair of aero overshoes (Velotoze are a good, affordable option)
• Pinning your number on so it is as flush on your back as possible (you don't want to be dragging a sail around) 
• A good structured warm up. Just because you are riding a road bike doesn't mean that you can be any less prepared for the effort to come!
• Wheels - whilst aero wheels are not the 'be all and end all' that people often make out (many are only a faster option at over 25mph and some in excess of 28mph), a good, light, set of wheels are a good investment.
• If you haven't had a bike fit, this is definitely where to invest your money! 

There will always be people who buy as much aero kit as they can afford but it doesn't necessarily make them faster. The aero kit is often the final 1%, concentrating on the physical and mental preparation will often reap far greater rewards, especially in the early days. It feels great when you beat someone on a TT bike when you are on a road bike too!! There are often seperate road bike leagues and prizes at both club and open events which evens out the stakes as well, so go for it!!

If you are female and are based in or near to the West Midlands, then you will be assured a warm welcome from The Midlands Women's Time Trial Series. There are 'jersey' categories for all abilities, with medals and the chance to compete for the beautiful Chris Goodfellow Memorial Bowls. The series runs from April to September and includes both 10 and 25m courses.

Honoured to be the custodian of my second Chris Goodfellow bowl. 'Fastest' in the 2017 season

TORQ Fuelled

Attention to detail is everywhere at TORQ Performance

I have been fortunate enough to have had support from TORQ for three years. I love the fact that they are heavily focussed on scientific research and source the highest quality ingredients. Furthermore, the products work for me. The ease of use is superb; 2 - 3 TORQ units per hour - with 500ml of energy, 1 bar, 1 gel and 1 chew all being 1 unit each. On a long ride this takes the guess work out of your refuelling strategy. Obviously we are all different and different training sessions have different goals and fuelling requirements; if I've set out to ride easy I might just fuel this on 2 x 750ml bottles of TORQ energy and a TORQ energy bar (raspberry and apple is a clear favourite of mine).

TORQ supplies just landed

The natural flavours of all of the TORQ products make them very palatable. TORQ Energy comes in vanilla pod, blackcurrant, orange, lemon, lime & lemon and pink grapefruit. My go-to flavours are blackcurrant and pink grapefruit. Again, taste is a personal thing so it may well be worth buying a few different flavoured sachets and seeing what tickles your taste buds. 500ml of TORQ Energy provides 30g of carbohydrates (1 unit of the TORQ fuelling system), it contains multiple transportable carbohydrates and electrolytes, with no artificial sweeteners or preservatives.

TORQ travel canister and strap - smart products!

TORQ have got the taste and fuelling balance right but they've gone one step further and created some really neat ways of storing your Energy (or protein). When you want to take it on your travels there is a great screw top travel canister (which is equally as at home on the kitchen side) and a TORQ strap to secure the pouch (the seal on the pouch is excellent but the strap adds extra security and enables the pouch to be folded down to save space). If you need to take some extra Energy out with you there is a great little 'single measure' canister which you can pop in your back pocket.

Single measure, perfect for your back pocket, canister - a smart addition to the kitchen

Before I came across TORQ products I was wary of gels - they had historically been products that I had avoided due to their sickly and sweet taste. However, with their natural flavours and lack of artificial sweeteners and colours these really are a staple part of the TORQ fuelling system for me. Again, its down to personal taste (and they all taste great) but the Black Cherry yoghurt and Strawberry yoghurt are the winners for me! Given I'm a little superstitious I once tried the Black Cherry yoghurt gel ahead of a race that went well and now the ritual is one of these before every race! The Raspberry Ripple and Rhubarb and Custard are also particularly scrumptious but don't take my word for it, have a try yourself! You can purchase any flavour combination from TORQ, so you could have a box with every flavour to start with and see which you prefer. The latest addition is Bakewell Tart - I have a feeling this may well be making an appearance on my shortlist after I've trialled it on a couple of long rides. Again, each gel provides 30g of carbohydrate or 1 TORQ unit.

If you like something a little different in texture, and again part of the TORQ fuelling system, the TORQ Chew is another way to get some carbohydrates into your system (another 30g/1 unit). The chews are very low in fat and come in Mango and Pineapple - both taste great but my preference is Mango (I adore mango so no surprise there). They are deliberately chewy, so best stored in a back pocket closest to your body or, personally I find best just stuffed up the leg of your shorts where your body heat makes them the perfect munching consistency. When you fancy some variety on a long (or short) ride they mix nicely with the bars and drink. I like to gradually work my way through one and like the fact that it is easy to do this without it becoming sticky.

Organic Mango or Organic Pineapple to chew on

As you would expect, TORQ have everything covered from fuelling to recovery as well as healthy 'Snaqing', all with their meticulous approach to performance nutrition. I've just taken delivery of a mixed box of TORQ Recovery bars in vanilla and cocoa - having given up chocolate in any form for Lent, the latter will have to wait for its taste test! The recovery bars form part of a recovery system containing 3:1 carbohydrate:whey protein, 13.5g of fast-acting whey protein and only 1g of fat for rapid nutrient absorption. They are cold pressed, fair trade and goes without saying that they are all natural flavours with no artificial sweeteners or preservatives.

Vanilla and Cocoa Crisp bars to aid recovery

Why not head across to TORQ and explore the full range of products for yourself and let us know what you think.

Eat Drink & Be Winners...

... Thanks to British Cycling, that's just what we did!

Once I'd got over the shock that BC had actually meant to invite me and it wasn't some sort of mistake (BC are perhaps better known for recognising road racing and track performances rather than time trialling), I was really excited to be going to the annual awards dinner in Birmingham.

I was one of countless amateurs recognised for a performance of note in 2017 - everyone present had either won a National Championship or was a medallist on the UCI World stage. In my case, my silver medal from the UCI World Amateur TT in Albi had secured an invite.

Presentations took place throughout the afternoon, brilliantly compered by Carl Lawrenson, who you will know the voice of if you have been to any of the major track meets at Manchester or the Tour of Britain and The Women's Tour, on the road. He had three whole hours of dishing out various trophies and certificates, making each one sound as interesting and exciting as the fifty that had already gone before it! Top job Carl!

Receiving my certificate from Beth Shriever

The evening was hosted by Sky Sports presenter and Cycling broadcaster Orla Chennaoui, who was joined by a number of special guests in-between courses including three-time Grand Tour runner-up Phillipa York, Great Britain Cycling Team Performance Director Stephen Park, para-cyclist Will Bjergfelt and junior BMX World Champion Beth Shriever - who had also given out some of the awards earlier in the day.

Flying the Pro Vision Race Team colours up on the big screen

The Vox Centre did a great job in feeding us all - all three courses were superb and served with military precision; they even managed to cater for 100% of the food allergies and intolerances on our table, which was a pretty impressive feat in itself.

It was certainly a great opportunity to catch up with friends, new and old and celebrate the many successes of cycling in 2017. Tom Pidcock and Katie Archibald were the two 'big winners' of the night. Tom Pidcock had an unforgettable 2017 which saw him become a Junior World Champion in both cyclo-cross and time trial - he received British Cycling's Rider of the Year, voted for by BC members and social media followers. Meanwhile Katie Archibald, who was runner up in the Rider of the Year vote, received the prestigious British Olympic Association trophy, for a year which saw her win her first individual world title, two European crowns and a plethora of National titles.

Celebrating with good friends Clair & Lisa

You couldn't fail but come away inspired - and given that Winter isn't yet showing any signs of giving way to Spring, I am definitely in need of some inspiration!

Special thanks to this one!